things are back in order.

and Halloween is coming, with cool weather, Casey's birthday, and all other holidays to follow. plus our lease will be up, which we hope to renew a few extra months, and then tax season....

oh life.

and now, i can finally say that my debt will be gone by march. it's an amazing feeling, and i know it's something super stupid, but i can't even put into words how excited this makes me! i mean, i've been working at it a really long time and the pay off is finally almost here!

at any rate, i'm lame.

so, pumpkins, and movies and baking and tea...plus i'm going to start volunteering at the humane society, and for this dolphin project...and signing up for school.

it's here, all i've talked about wanting to do it and it's here...whoa.

i'm just not sure what to do, because there is this possibility that i may be moving to Tampa...like unless things super perk up at my job, and that place does a 180 and becomes the most enjoyable, magical place on earth, i may be heading to Tampa. here's the thing, stupid st. Joseph's will supposedly work with my school schedule, and give me money to go...

buttttttttttt, i'm pretty sure that Tampa will offer more flexible programs such as night/weekend classes....

oh the decisions.

all in all, things are working out, and this whole year has been wonderful as i predicted!!!

i'm in florida. well, until this afternoon, then i'll be back in savannah.

i'm burnt, loving my dog, and hanging out with friends. sometimes i wish life could be like this always...not worrying about work, and getting that sense of excitement when you haven't seen some one in a really long time. and the beach is open and enjoyable all year.

and then sometimes, it's just all really annoying. and you wonder why the people you're seeing here can't even make the effort to ever come visit...it's pretty un-balanced as far as friendship goes.

hmmmmmmmmm.

thanksgiving in valona.
christmas in port charlotte.
a new year in sav.

who knows.

and tampa. tampa is on the list....

I love and hate the fact that October is almost here. seasons changing, pumpkins and cookies...fall. and not to mention, pumpkin spice flavored everything. I feel like since living here, the summer isn't long enough though...good thing i'll be home in a couple weeks to see the beach.

the job hunt is going...i mean i'm not even sure if i need to hunt anymore. long story, but if Debbie gets the job, things will look up for me. don't get me wrong though, i'm still looking else where...like north and south carolina else where....what ever happens, and where ever i end up is exactly where i'm supposed to be.

things are going to be good though, i just know it.

hmmm.

middle of September. and things are still going alright. i am desperately hoping for some sort of new job, a new job contact, a light at the end of the tunnel....i can barely see it.

oh my. i guess it's just one of those days.

though, i did get to hold a baby. a super cute, wiggly baby, who was extra happy. that was fun.
and i did have a run in with the law, which always gives me a good laugh.

and i'm at one of my favorite places...the library.
and soon enough, i will get to sleep...lots and lots of sleep.

my cousin Dawn and her friend Katie were here today. well they've been here since yesterday.

we spent the day eating wonderful food and walking around Savannah...taking pictures of the moss and squares, enjoying the architecture and cemetery. coffee, and eggs. it was really fun, nice. it's strange when you live in such a beautiful place full time you start to take it for granted. -i'm sorry Savannah, you are something to get excited about.

it's just another reminder to be thankful for what you have. even the simple things.

i'm loving this weather.
though it always shocks me when summer ends so suddenly.

it's a lovely day though.
and tomorrow will be nice as well.


and all this, makes me not want to find a job.

today is the first day of September. the ninth month of 2009.

i'm already another year older...and even worse, 2010 will be here before we know it...and i'm not where i should be.

let's see...the year started out good, i finally got a decent job, and was getting on track with all the bills, all my debt...then i met some super shady people who i thought were cool, turns out, no no no no no. that's okay though, i really don't mind...then six months flew by, i finally got a car....

and now.
job pretty much gone. phone trouble, computer virus.

that is three things right? three bad things. i don't know if i can take anymore.

i'm just trying to see where this all went wrong. and i can't really help but laugh, because it is so typical that these things would happen to me.

bonus though; Tim is back in my life. i only have 4 months left to rough it. and it's times like these when you really see who your friends are.

so yes, i thought '09 was going to be way better last year, and i can name a hundred ways that it is. but this wasn't supposed to happen.

i do however, have a wonderful family. and i'm learning how to cook. and sleeping in, and staying up late. it's not so bad...just not what i thought.

pray for me.