so. not working seems to have it's ups and downs. kinda freaked at first, but i just really have this feeling that everything is going to be okay. some way, some how.

my family is amazing, i love them beyond words...especially my dad.

i'm hoping for the best now...and i have faith in myself.
let it be known that what comes around goes around, the world moves in circles. i believe in this to the fullest.

at any rate, things will be changing sooner than later.

so.

summer has been going well so far. busy weekends ahead, i love it. no weekend call for the month of July. stoked.

Tim is back in California and already starting with the same non sense. makes me wonder when will i finally learn?

we are having fun though. drinking, dancing, driving in the element. all good things. last weekend i went home and watched Steven's fire works....i love the fourth. nothing like being on the river with a funnel cake and hundreds of people you've seen before. my family ate pasta salad together Sunday morning before i left, such a fun story. i really love them.

and it's been so pretty, the rain and the beach, ice cream....i want for days like these to never end.

22 soon.
pretty exciting, i look at birth days as a reason to really act a fool. plus everyone has to be nice to you, and i can get away with being ridiculous.also, it comes with cake.

yay!

i wish i knew how not to criticize so much.

fingers crossed for a new car next weekend.

i'm so tired.
with good reason.

i've done something wild, really, really, out did myself this time. and now there are blisters on my feet...which is apparently some sick way to remind me by making it painful to even walk.

this summer has been quite eventful, especially the last few days...i know it's early, and that's what i love.

mmmmmmm.

i love surprise days off.
working until midnight though is not so hot.
i think that today i'm going to clean.
and shower.
and have my car looked at.
and do all the things i would never waste my fabulous weekend doing.

for some reason i've been feeling completely content with where i am. and i find it strange.
it feels good.

i love summer.
beach days, crazy umbrellas, bridge traffic. barbecue's, wine.
new hires at work, traveling.
i'm excited to go home for the fourth, and excited to go back to Chicago...when it's not freezing out.

i'm knitting, and cooking, and i've been thinking.

i've been thinking about nothing in particular, and everything in general. it's actually very confusing...and liberating.

i'm trying to make plans for when this year is over, but oddly enough i am content.
i figure that it is the wanting that kills us.

i'm getting out of debt. i'll be getting a new car, and a new education.
oi.

with everything i have, and without everything i want.
i am blessed.

i got the warts frozen off my hand today.
they are blistery and bubbly.

gross.
i also recently got a bubble machine, fabulous shoes, and my hair cut...
+i'm planning a trip home and to chicago this summer.